See the mystery of Britney Spears' Breasts at Rebekka's blog.

UGH! Why oh why did I eat that tofutti cutie today?! Those of you who know what soy does to me know what I'm talking about. The rest of you can use your imagination. ;)

Mimi counted to 3 today.

My friend Mina posted a funny epitaph site joked that AMU might need one. Here is what my friend Rebekka came up with:

Under the rubble, AMU lay...
A victim of conflict that bloggy Sunday...
If your not sated and still want to play..
The corpse is for sale, go bid at ebay.

It doesn't fit since evidently they are gonna reopen, I can't figure out who would want to go back though after this most recent episode. I guess if people can stand to be *around* the owners after all the shit went flying and the truth came out, they belong there.

Here is my Colorgenics profile:

You have a vivid imagination and this is good. Great inventors, explorers all had inventive, imaginative minds. Your friends and acquaintances may consider you over-imaginative and given to fantasy or day-dreaming. So what ?... this is a part of your character and charm.

You are a leader and possibly at this tine in a position of authority. But you are experiencing problems ... You are not quite sure how to handle the present situation .. .

You are a rather inhibited sort of person. This could be the result of your upbringing or of your schooling, whatever. You are able to obtain satisfaction from various forms of physical or emotional activity ...but all in all- you are inclined to be emotionally withdrawn. As a consequence of this you find it difficult to sustain any deep involvement.

You are being unduly influenced by the situation that is all around you. You do not like the feeling of loneliness and whatever it is that seems to separate you from others. You know that life can be wonderful and you are anxious to experience life in all its aspects, to live it to the full. You therefore resent any restriction or limitations that are being imposed on you and you insist on going it alone.

You are anxious about all the limitations to which you are subjected to at this time.... You feel that you are not valued for what or who you are. You need OUT. So why procrastinate any longer .... MOVE!


WOW! I'm not sure what to make of this, its pretty eery. That last line especially. I won't go into it all, but lets just say the thought has crossed my mind unfotunatly these past few days. I'm not leaving though, I took a vow that I will never break unless I were in an abusive situation.

Tonight the kids took their first bath together. Dawson is sitting up pretty well so I put him in the laundry basket so he was surrounded by sides and the water could still move around him. He had fun splashing and playing with the toys. Mom took a ton of pictures that I can't wait to get copies of.

Megan had fun yelling "Haey Haey GOOO!" (ready set go) and then jumping off of a box, landing and doing a summersault. (which she does with perfect form and pointed toes I might add) Then she would clap for herself and say "YAAA!" She was funny. When I said it was time to go, she got really solem and pretended to pout. She lets her shoulders go limp and hangs her head...where does she get that??? Its really hard not to roar with laughter at some of the stuff she does.

Olympics Schmolympics. I'm tired of it already and especially sick of Katie Couric's commentary. I really was looking forward to watching Law and Order tonight and forgot the opening ceremonies were on. ACK! I usually enjoy the summer olympics but this last time, the televising of it was horrible. You never got to see a complete event and the jumping around was aggrivating. These next 2 weeks couldn't go fast enough for me!

Last night at MOPS we had someone there talking about the signs and types of abuse. I was sitting next to my friend T and when the lady said that you can't judge who is or is not an abuser by their looks and I said something like "my best friend was raped many times by a guy that Josh and I really liked. We had no clue it was happeneing." She says "I was abused by my husband for a long time and no one knew it." I think my mouth fell to the floor and I almost asked her if she was serious. I knew it couldn't be her husband now because he has been a pastor at our church for almost as long as they have been married. I didn't know she had been married before, but she said she had and that the woman speaking was the one that had helped her leave. WOW! She said that 1 out of 2 women were abuse survivors. I guess if you account for all the women who left jealous/socially oppressive/belittling boyfriends like I did, the number could be higher than that. When I was 15 I had a boyfriend that didn't like for me to talk to other guys unless he was there. He also called me "stupid" or laughed at me when I didn't get something or said something he didn't like. He became especially mad one night when a friend called me to discuss term papers. Its all we talked about but Jeff became adament that Brian had other intentions and he didn't like that I was talking on the phone with other guys behind his back. We broke up soon after that (much to my dad's relief) because of the jealousy and the fact that when I said I wasn't gonna have sex with him, it meant ever, not just that week. (roll eyes) A few years later i was talking to a friend who had also just broke up with Jeff and she said that he was the same way with her. They lasted a lot longer together and I'm not sure of all the details but she did say he had a problem with jealousy. He is married now with at least one little girl. I hope he has grown up a lot. They moved so he could live closer to his dad and work for him. I have wondered for awhile if that was a good idea because I am pretty sure that the way he acted had roots in the way his dad treated his mom. (they were divorced) I hope that he isn't treating her the way he treated us. (me and Ali)

Ro, I finally put in the 2nd CD of that set you bought for me. I have enjoyed the first one so much and couldn't find it at naptime today. Josh took it out of the cd player last night and I couldnt' find it. I did though after putting the other one in. :)

A big realization hit me today. Just because someone owns an AP/Alternative parenting site doesn't make them AP/Alternative parents. I don't know why I always assumed that to be so. :/ What you see is what you get with me, I guess I assumed everyone else was as honest.

Josh is finally fed up enough with his job that he actually went to monster last night and copied down 2 jobs to call about today. He had a really rotten day yesterday. His pay isn't 1/2 of what he thought he was getting and they haven't paid him $100 that he has been owed for 3 weeks now yet. I hope he can get hired somewhere else soon. This is getting really ridiculous and I can't believe my husband has waited around this long for something to happen that would somehow make all the bad stuff go away.

1. What's the most romantic thing you've ever done for someone else?
I guess the thing that stands out most is the time I left a trail of clothing through the house that ended with me naked on the bed. I don't know if that is exactly best described as "romantic" though.

2. [pardon the cosmo question] What are your erogenous zones?
hmm, my neck is the biggy.

3. How old were you the first time you had sex? Care to expound? 21 on my honeymoon in the Contemporary resort in Walt Disney World.

4. What's the most unusual place you've ever had sex? The back deck

5. Do you have plans for Valentine's Day or is it just another Thursday? No unfortunatly we don't.

See which Greek Goddess you are.

A good day finally. I did our federal taxes and we are getting it all back (actually it will all go to pay what we still owe from last year) and Josh sold 2 vehicles. :o)

It takes an idiot to be a highschool teacher and have your female students over after class. But to be warned and continue doing so is purely moronic! A guy I went to school with and spent a lot of time with socially was caught dating an 11th grader. He ended up resigning, but he would have been fired anyway. There isn't any news story on this as far as I know and no statutory rape charges, but I'll let you know if anything develops. If there is anything worth charging him for, the girl is probably protecting him. What a freakin' DOLT! This same guy used to say he wouldnt' date anyone 3 years younger than him...I guess that doesn't cover girls 10 years younger than him. {shakes head and goes off to fix lunch}

I am a Christian. Lately I've been thinking a lot about science, medicine, vaccines and the bodies that God gave us. God clearly commands us to have no idols. (think dr worship) He also tells us to take care of our bodies. Our bodies work the way they do for a reason. If we were to all ecologically breastfeed our children, eat whole foods and treat illness at home whenever possible, our immune systems would be in perfect condition and most ailments would be overcome in just days with or without treatment. The bad ailments that are becoming more and more commonplace probably wouldn't exist, and the few widespread health problems throughout history (such as smallpox or polio), while not pretty, all existed for a reason and in the face of better hygeine probably wouldn't be a huge problem in today's society. If I'm a Christian and believe that I am fearfully and wonderfully made, why do I need science to back my body up with toxins in the name of immunization? Why is it so hard for people to have faith in their bodies and trust that God (or whomever/however you believe we all got here) made us the way we are for a reason and any tampering with that is bad? Does God feel blasphemed when a new mom opens a can of Enfamil? When a newborn is taken to the dr for a well-baby check and a round of vaccines? When we turn to the pharmecutical companies to treat our illness instead of God's nature for herbs or other natural remedies? I think he does...in the very least hes sad that we long-ago abandoned his creation for something that is man-made and lesser. We have failed generations of children by feeding them man-made formula and telling moms that its just as good or better. That left kids sickly and with failing immune systems, so we needed advancements in medicine and vaccines to keep them healthy. Its an ugly cycle.

I believe that Dr's are here for a reason. If I had a broken bone, or was really sick with something I couldn't treat myself, I would definitly go strait to the dr. My TMJ is an example. I can only treat myself to a certain extent, I need to see a dr to take care of the rest.

I'm considering researching a book aimed at moms or pregnant women centered around biblical reasons to breastfeed and take care of their children. If I decide to do it, it will take tons of time but I'm up for the challenge.

My bite splint broke again today. Now all that is left of it is the middle. (both ends that cover my back teeth are gone!) I rely on this thing to chew my food so my teeth can grind. Its gone and my teeth don't touch. I'm getting a horrible tension headache. We really need to come up with the money to replace this thing!

My daddy loaned me the money to get back my sewing machine. I will soon start on my first quilt, but first I need to finish the skirt I was working on when I messed the thing up. (note to self: Don't sew OVER the zipper, sewing machines don't like that too well obviously!)

This week has started off well for Josh. He has had some customers and will probably get 2 deals done tomorrow. He is also going for a job interview tomorrow. Its a longshot, but the add in the paper didn't list any requirements that he doesn't have and he does have some management experience so I hope he will be considered. THe pay was pretty awesome!

AMU (The rebel in me won't let me put the ! after the U) is down, may not come back up. I guess I'll stay at MamaNirvana. I'm not in a place where I want to be without an online community for support. I don't have it IRL (especially for PP) and the people I have met at AMU especially have helped me through a lot and I've learned so much. I also don't want to lose touch with people and thats the easiest way to do it. Elists drive me nuts and while I do post at an EZboard, I really don't prefer that format. I think its up to everyone to decide what is best for *them.* I just hope that we can finally get on with creating community without the freakin' politics that has seeped in in the past.

I forgot yesterday to mention that I was talking to another nursery worker at church sunday and found out that she and I were very much alike. She asked where we had been for a few weeks and I said that Dawson was having trouble kicking a cold and we had stayed home while he recouped. I said I had given him echinacea to boost his immune system. She said she used it too. (I have never heard this in my real life before except from my midwife, Courtney). So, I said that I had gone to the health food store and got some homeopathics but it was really to late to use them since they work better if you catch the bug early, but they were in case someone else came down with it. She said she used homeopathy all the time. So a few min later I asked her if she knew the Dr in our area that was also a Naturopath. I just mentioned quickly that he didn't prescribe abx and supported not vaccinating children. She said, well I don't do that either and I don't care who thinks I crazy for it. We had a great conversation. We had really never talked before except about the kids.

{Off to ponder what my dream last night about flannel butt wipes really means.} LOL

Thank you Kayla for this hilarious link! I have been laughing my butt off for the past 30 min and only got through 3 of the books. I can't wait to come back to this later.

I've had a rotten freaking day! I had a rough morning. He wouldn't nurse at music time, so he ended up crying all the way home. He took a good afternoon nap and I got excited about going to get my sewing machine. I got there and the jerk didn't open the store today. No explaination or anything. That shopowner is the MOST unprofessional person I have ever met!!! I went up the road to the Christian Book Store to get Josh's Bible (it was there for engraving). When I got there, (I haven't mentinoed yet that the wind chill today was horrid!) I checked on Dawson because he was a bit distraught and found that he had pooped EVERYWHERE! I laid a blanket across my lap because it was way to cold to change him in the back of the blazer with the door open. It took me AND my mom to change him and clean up the whole mess. It was all over him, his clothes, his coat, his carseat, EVERYWHERE! We got him dressed (thankfully I had remembered to put new clothes in the car) and I got the Bible only to come out and find my battery was dead because I had left the switch on for music. Josh had to come jump off my car and in the meantime, Megan had peed in her carseat. Josh's customer didn't come back today, he called about a job in the paper and thinks its been filled already (he will find out tomorrow), he can't take his day off tomorrow cause he didn't sell anything today, D cried the whole way home from my parent's house after dinner and I had to stop for gas too! Why do some days just turn out so shitty!