I had the most awesome idea today

Behind the house we are moving to is an acre of unused land. There is road access and its flat for the most part. I was riding down the road and it hit me...mil and I should put a greenhouse or 2 back there and open a nursery. My first thought was to specialize in organic veggies along with some herbs and other flowering trees and such. I have the vision SO clear in my mind. I am positive it would take a few years to get started because we aren't financially in the shape I would need to walk into the bank and ask for a loan for such a venture and I have a LOT to learn on the subject but MIL has been doing it for ages and we would make a great team. Not to mention that Josh could quit his job eventually and we could do it all on our own one day. He could offer landscaping and stuff on the side (which he is good at, but doesn't do often.). Oh well, its an idea to dwell on and think about for now. I swear though, it couldn't be clearer in my mind.

We had a pretty normal uneventful day but it didn't end that way. We spent the day on and off at Josh's parent's house. We went in the morning and helped Nana plant some wave petunias in pots and after lunch went home for naps. After running some errands we went back to water plants and stuff. I left around 5 to get pizza at pizza hut. When I got back, MIL thrust Dawson back into my arms and said that she had to take her mother to the hospital. SHe said that she thought her foot was broken. I got Megan dinner, MIL dinner and FIL dinner while they called 911 and got her into the bed to use the bedpan. (she has multiple physical problems due to Rheumatoid Arthritis and MIL is her main caregiver). While in bed, they determined it was probably her leg and not her foot. She said the pain was a 9 on a scale of 1 to 10 and for her to complain, it has to be bad! The EMS came and Megan was so good. She climbed on the steps and watched from a distance. The guys were sweet to her and asked her questions. She kissed GG goodbye in the ambulance and we went home afterward. As we were pulling out of their driveway, Megan kept talking solemnly about GG going to the doctor. I asked if Megan wanted to say a prayer for GG and she said she did. I looked and she had crossed her fingers and bowed her head. :) I had her repeat after me:
Mama: God,
Mimi: Dod,

Mama: Help GG get better please.
Mimi: Hep DD det better peas.

Mama: and take her pain away.
Mimi: and ta hoo pa way.

Amen.

If I only had a kitchenaid stand mixer my life would be complete...make it the pink one.

The ants have created their own little eco-system in my berber.

Someone PLEASE tell me that I am not crazy when I say this is the biggest load of bullshit ever!!

So I'm at the (mostly) mainstream playgroup this morning and a little boy (about 19 months old) is drinking juice out of his bottle. THe bottle is blue so I have no idea what kind of juice is in it until the mom says something about blue koolaid. My jaw must have dropped because she says that they are cutting the juice with koolaid to add calories. I inquired why and she says because he is loosing weight and dropping down the fucking percentage points and the dr and nutritionest both have her upping his calories so that it doesn't cause a problem. WHAT?? If the child is developmentally ok (which he is, although according to his mom who has had him checked for EVERYTHING, he is a little behind verbally and I think fine motor...I told her that what was "normal" for one kid is different for another and he is more verbal for his age than Megan was at that age...anyway) what does losing a little weight once the kid gets to the age he is running and climbing and so on mean? I told her that he was probably slimming down and just not gaining weight very fast these days because hes more active. And of all things to give a child....Koolaid? If I was worried about my childs weight I think I would be pushing the cheese, avacaods, nuts and meat (amoung other things). Maybe that toddler formula (of course if I wasn't nursing that is). I was flabbergasted. I don't think that Megan has EVER had koolaid much less ounces of it EVERY SINGLE DAY! One more freaking reason I'm glad we ignor well baby checks. What a load of CRAP! I'm trying hard not to be judgmental of this woman and her family, but truth is, I'm positive that their diets leave much to be desired anyway. I cringe to think what he is really eating on a daily basis past the juice and koolaid.

Its Spring and that means that the fucking ants are back. It never fails, they are here all summer and they are immune to the pest control stuff. Last summer he sprayed at least 3 times and then we set out traps, etc...they never leave. Last night we vaccuumed at least 100 off the wall in the living room. They are in my pantry, so I guess I need to figure out how to store things like cereal better and need to remember that the syrup should have a closed lid!!! (barf)

I kept D up til 6:30 last night and he slept til 6 this morning. I have MOPS tonight but doubt I'll go. Its at 6:30 and D will be miserable. I will end up keeping him because there is no way in hell he'll stay in the nursery and I won't have any fun, so whats the point. :/

It looks like they packed up their website and went home. Pathetic.

If they are so "seasoned", why do they need so many forums. Shouldn't they already know the answers and therefor only need a discussion and question forum? Sounds like it would be aweful slow moving that way. Just my .02 anyway. And Katie , it looks black over there to little ol' me. Don't see a bit of brown. ;) I promise I won't go back, I was trying to figure out who the other person was whos kids don't live with them...still haven't figured it out.

Would someone tell my son please that 5:30 is NOT an appropriate wakeup time? His bedtime just keeps getting earlier which makes his wakeup time earlier. I just can't do this anymore. Do I force him to stay awake at night when hes tired? No, I know I can't do that but this is getting worse. HE went from waking up at 8 to 7:30 to 7 to 6:30 to 5:30. His naps seem adequate during the day. Mimi was asleep by 6 last night. She wanted to see her Grandma Beam (my mom) but she fell asleep before my mom was to come by. The first thing she said when she came in the livingroom to nurse this morning was "See Gramma Beam?" She was sad when I told her that GB had come by to see her but she had gone to sleep. I think I'm gonna go lay back down with Dawson in a min and take a nap with him. Josh is home today. I made an appt for 3 today to get my hair cut. IT needs thinning more than anything but hopefully the girl can do some cool layers and my my paige davis style official. My hair hasn't been really cut in months. J's mom did trim it a tad last month but it wasn't anything more than that.

Last night we were looking at dire straits. Josh came home from work and told me that he had only made enough in sales to cover his weekly draw checks. I started to panic and said that we still had one more day and that was enough time for a miracle. Then he took Megan outside and I laid down with Dawson and the thoughts started in my head...I was freaking out and started crying. It wasn't pretty. Before we went to sleep last night, we prayed together and there was a specific amount of money that we knew was a minimum that we would need before taxes to make the important bill payments. It wasn't a huge sum of money but it was pretty substantial considering we were basically at zero. Anyway, we prayed and went to sleep with the faith that something big would happen the next day.
I talked to Josh around 10:30 after we left art time. He had sold a van that he had been fighting for to happen for 3 or 4 days now. Last night he thougth the deal was dead. Halleluia! He asked me to bring him a different pair of pants so I called his mom to see if she would take them to him since I had 2 hungry kids and I was sure that Dawson wouldn't tollerate another ride in the car this morning. After that he called around 12:30 and says, "guess what I just did." I asked if he had ripped those pants too. LOL He said he had just sold another vehicle...this deal had just fallen into his lap after the salesman that originally had it abruptly quit that morning. The total of these two deals exactly equaled what we had prayed for last night! So, we aren't rich now, but I won't get behind on that damn Blazer payment, Josh's truck will be paid, insurance and utilities will get paid and we should have some to give his parents for rent. I have been saying all month that our money problems are over. They are OVER!

We decided against music this morning. I asked M if she would rather go to music or to see Courtney, Zack and Brody (my midwife and her 3 and 4 1/2 year old) at their property. They are building a log house on 70 acres and they ahve a huge pasture and garden this spring. She picked to go see Courtney and the boys so off we went. Megan took off on adventures with the 2 boys and I let her just go but kept my ears open and checked on them very often. She had a ball and sometimes would say "Mama!! Mimi heee-ya." We had a great morning and then had lunch with them before coming home for naps.

A few weeks ago we witnessed a situation in our mall's food court. A man who worked in the housekeeping dept was struggling with the garbage cart. One of the bags ripped and was going everywhere and he was having a hard time. He yelled to another lady to come and help him out because there was already a mess. She basically told him to Piss off that it was his job and not hers. Josh turned around and firmly said that she really needed to give him a hand or he was going to and then he would report her and the incident to the mall. She said "do whatever the hell you want to do, I'm not doing it." So Josh did exactly that. He was PISSED to say the least. He told the mall president and he was really upset. HE called in all the upper staff and had Josh talk to everyone on a conference call. We got a $25 gift cert. in the mail today. I'm gonna get my hair cut I think. Maybe some makeup..not sure.

Yesterday was my daddy's birthday. He turned 67. I worry that we may not get to another one. Most days he appears fine, but underneath he isn't doing well at all. He sleeps all the time, barely eats and my mom is going to nag him til the day he dies...hes probably wishing for it. He has smoked since he was very young and had multiple heart problems and a stroke in the past 25 years. I begged my sister to spend some real time down here this summer. I worry some nights when I say goodbye to him that it could be for good.

We went out for brunch at IHOP. The kids were fabulous. Dawson kept himself busy (and us entertained) with a cup of applesauce (his first) and some lemon slices. He is 8 months old tomorrow!!! Megan ate most of her lunch and was just as sweet as can be. We spent the afternoon with them at home and I went home with a bag full of day lillies, some daisy's and some plants with white spots on the leaves. I have the daisy's and plants in the ground, I have quite a bit of work to do with the lillies though.

We have music this morning and the rest of the day will be busy work. Bean and Cheese Chimichangas for dinner tonight. YUM

Goodbye Ruth You'll be missed greatly!