the wedding is over!

I am SOO relieved! Megan was a perfect angel and Dawson was a typical baby who fussed and wanted to be at home where he is comfortable nursing without distraction. IT didn't go so well at the reception unfortunatly and I had to bale after only a few bites of food. I tried to nurse the poor little guy at the church. He sucked about 4 times and was through. SO, at the reception I looked for somewhere quiet where he could relax and didn't find that place. I offered at the table and he just screamed. So, I took him to the car and he ate for a few minutes there and then cried most of the way home. THankfuly it was only a 10 min drive. MIL brought Megan home about 15 min. later. M nursed for a while and then started puking. I don't know what the deal was, but she drank something and then said she felt all better and went off to sleep. Weird. That dress was nice to have, but I really didn't find it comfortable. I will have to do some adjustments to it before I wear it again. The nursing slits kept coming open and the dress just felt too big for me all over. I wasn't happy with it though. :( Tonight I found myself wishing I could have been one of those moms who could just leave the baby with a bottle and a babysitter and have a good time. :/

There were a small handful of people there that we went to school with. Most of them are still single and a few of them still in school. (we are 25/26 depending on birthday months). We are the only ones with kids though of the group that was there. I just have trouble relating to them and had little to talk about unless they were asking about the kids. Thankfully since I wasn't there long, I didn't have to feel so akward for long. I just don't do well in those situations and its not like they are strangers, we used to spend several hours a day together every day. Years and experiences change you though. Chris (the groom) and Josh used to be best friends and rarely even talk anymore. They live over an hour away though so that makes it hard. After I left, Josh got into the big "so what are you doing these days" discussion with several old friends and I think that he came home feeling a little self-conscious. The next big question was always, "so fatherhood, Whats THAT like?" (asked almost in a condescending way) I guess if you are used to being unattached, the idea of being responsible for a wife and kids is pretty foreign. Josh was adament that he wouldn't change a thing about his life or family. I hope hes as happy as he said he is. I'm sure that there are things about his life he wouldn't mind changing though. Some days I wonder what life could be like if we had done things differently. Like, if we had both gone off to school...would we have stayed together? Would we have met other people and gotten married only to be miserable but financially better off? Would I be at WOHM if I had a degree and a carreer? I firmly believe that everything happens for a reason though and can't think of a single important detail of my life that I would change because every one of them has made me who I am.

So, all in all the day went well...The big stresser of the afternoon though happened when Josh slipped on his tux jacket and it was HUGE! Hes a big guy (getting smaller though) and this thing just swollowed him whole. When he held his arm strait at his side, the sleeve hung to the bottom of his thumb! It was also too big in the chest. I called the tux place and thankfully they were still open. She said "hes supposed to have a 58 regular, check the pocket and see what it says. Well, it was a 58 Long. I told her that he really needed a 56 regular because the chest was enormous. So, she had to call the "warehouse" and then ended up closing the shop to go get it and bring it to Josh. He said he really thinks a 54 would have fit fine, but the 56 worked. Several of the other guys (including the groom) said their coats fit badly. I wonder if this girl that fitted them all just didn't know what she was doing?

Oy!

That wedding is going to be LONG! The rehersal was 2 hours first of all so we skipped the dinner and had fries and frostys from Wendys. :D They are Lutheran and this service is way formal. Not dressy formal, but formal in a religous way. They are having a communion service for the whole congregation and there are at least 3 congregational singings. The preacher is having everyone (including the couple) sit down for a sermon. I would NOT have been happy with the rules this church has but I didn't grow up in a church that had formal religious services and the church I go to now is SO laid back that even going back to my parents chuch is hard for me to bear. I am not used to the candle-lighters and flag carriers and such so it all seems so strange to me. Beverly wasn't able to pick ANY contemporary music. It all had to be church music...not even the wedding march. I was relieved to find out that they are going to have the service videotaped and run into the tv in the fellowship hall. I decided right then and there to just go ahead and take the kids downstairs from the get-go since there is no childcare provided.

We are going out to breakfast in the morning and to get groceries and then J has to be at the church to dress at 3. IT will be a long day.

The Dress is almost done. I had to recruit my MIL to help me with a lot of it though. I got in way over my head with that thin crepe fabric and she ended up lining it for me thankfully! So, while she had it, I made myself some capri pants and hope to whip a top together before this evening so I can wear it to the rehersal dinner.

I had my first tomato sandwich of the summer last night (and 2nd one too.lol) and fried squash cookies too. MMMMM! None of it came out of my garden, but we have tons of little green tomatoes that I can't wait to pick. :D The squash came from my midwife friend, Courtney. They were HUGE and she gave me a mondo green zuchinni too. I think we will have stir fry with it this weekend. We watched "Out Cold" last night and "Monster's Ball" the night before. I still don't have an opinion on MB. It was well made and the story kept me interested, I just wasn't that thrilled with it. Out Cold was hilarious but really silly.

Why do people after all these years still tell you to "leave your name, number and a brief message AFTER THE BEEP" Unless you were born yesterday or were dropped out of the sky from another galaxy, you know how to navigate an answering machine. WE get it already. I think our next message will be "you know what to do" BEEP!

Since I believe that we introduced AIDS to these countries in the first place its about time we did something about it. I'm just not sure this is the right way to go about it. Especially with everything else going on in the world right now. I'm pretty sure that money would be better spent feeding and educating them but I'm not in charge of it.

Is anyone else having trouble signing in to MSN/Hotmail? My main acct is through MSN and I'm freaking out here because I can't get to my email!!!

Oh, and I DID get started on my dress last night. :P

Josh actually took the initiative today and inquired about another job!! He has been fed up before, but he has never gone out of his way to look for a job and then call about it. Usually he would check out something that I found. And the best part is that it has NOTHING to do with the car business!!! I can't wait for him to be free of the BS!

Ok, I'm gonna start sewing now, I promise!

I went to Hancock Fabrics today and got my thread and zipper and if I wasn't busy enough, I am now. I got fabric to make myself some kakhi capris with a cute patchworky trim around the cuff. I got enough of the patchwork looking stuff to make a matching tank top but don't have the pattern for that yet. lol I may need to use one of my maternity tanks and alter it a little (A LOT! LOL). My mom is gonna play with the kids tomorrow afternoon so maybe I'll get it done by tomorrow night. Adios

I know, I know, I should be sewing

I don't have the right color thread. Thats my excuse. I know, I could use white, but my back hurts too so I shouldn't be hunching over the sewing machine, right? I did cut it out tonight so I'm one step closer. :/ Mom promised to help me get in some sewing time this week.

We spent the day at the IL's today. I made homeade ice cream for everyone for Father's Day. Just plain ol' vanilla. I think next time it needs oreo cookies. LOL

Josh and I started discussing our living room today. (the one in the house we are fixing up). He wants to paint it red. So, I got out the paint swatch book and he picks out this cool (opposite of warm, not as in "thats cool!" lol) bold, burgendy (manly) color. Now, I don't hate the color, but keep in mind that the living room is right next to the kitchen with a large entry and no door between the 2. The kitchen is painted peach, apricot and persimmon (its a swirl for lack of a better word of all 3 colors) and will contain my fiestaware and the furniture will be lightwood in there. I looked through the swatches and found a warm redish/orangy color that is much lighter and will look fabulous next to the kitchen and coming in from the hallway too (which will be painted a sage color). He hates it. UGH! Then he says "just paint it the color you want, you will be more unhappy with a color you dislike than I will." Anyone know what a man really means when he says that? If I get that beautiful paint and he really doesn't like it and wants the other, will he turn on me? lol Ah well, its really the least of my living room worries right now. Since I dont even have workable furniture for that room yet, I guess that should come first huh. Now if the money for said furniture would fall into our lap, that would help. :P That room is gonna be hard. None of our furniture really fits but our entertainment center is gonna have to do until we can get something else. It only has one full wall in the whole room and the rest of the room is doorways, hallways and a big fire place *that I wish didn't exsist*. On top of that, its a narrow room that was designed before lives revolved around tv's. lol I think we need 2 lazy boys but we'll see what happens. All I know is that a couch will not work.