I've been thinking about the past 2 or so years online lately and have come to the realization that I have wasted so much of my life online. I'm not saying at all that noone matters to me and that I've wasted my life on you. If you matter to me, you know it. All my mama-sister's are not included, nor are most of the matrix mamas. WHen I say I have wasted my life on it, I am refering to all the drama, gossip and other garbage that has sucked so much of my time away from my family. I'm so glad I am able to come to the place where none of it matters. I have not officially left yaaps, but am no longer an active member there and I noticed some more has come up regarding the anon feature but haven't even cared to go look. I just don't have time to be sucked in to all of that. I have also suffered in my spiritual life and I like the way things are for me right now. This may sound strange to those of you who don't consider yourselves Christian, but I have been reading my Bible every day and feel a real relationship with my Heavenly Father now. I also am more involved with the kids in church than I ever was before and that is wonderful. Megan sang with the preschool chior on Wed. night and it was hilarious. I am sick of losing all that time I spent online and have more to give to them. I also feel my anger/rage issues disappearing. I stay more patient and I yell a LOT less. I'm not even sure I care about having the internet back on for the time being. I do miss being able to look up stuff on a whim (like the time D had hand/foot/mouth and I was able to get online and id it right away or study up on things like the Ezzo's to send to people like I did with my friend.). I also miss chatting occasionally with many of you, but life will change and settle down soon and I'm sure we'll get it turned back on eventually. I guess none of this really matters a whole lot, but I wanted to update on that part of my life.

Now to the fun stuff. There is a 2001 Chevy Impala sitting in the driveway right now. I am just test driving it at the moment but Josh decided to turn in an application so we should know something soon. Its pretty basic, but it drives nice, has a lot of room in the backseat and trunk and its priced well. I haven't heard back from Josh but I think its something we could sell easily or trade out of later on down the road. Oh and its silver. :) I really wanted a mini van but we haven't been able to find anything. THe one I wanted got sold by another salesman out from under me and everything else has been too expensive and since Josh is insistant that we buy where he works (which I can understand), there isn't much option. Anyway, I've prayed about this car and I feel at peace about it so if its meant to be, we will be approved and if its not, I'm not sure what we will do, but we will have something soon one way or another.

Man, its been awhile! My mom was having computer problems too so I've been offline for quite awhile. The biggest news right now is that Dawson fell off the couch the other night and broke his wrist. Of course it happened on the worst night of the year (weather wise) but we got it taken care of and he's doing fine. He wriggled out of the first cast and we had it redone yesterday. They gave him Tylenol with Codien at the hospital to help calm him down and it made him loopy but wired him so he didn't sleep for many hours that night. Otherwise things have been great with him. My FIL was diagnosed with prostate cancer the very next day but they caught it very early and I'm sure things will be fine for him too.

The lease on my blazer is up tomorrow and I don't have a vehicle still. I'm not going to worry until we have to drive that blazer in and we don't have something to take home.

Thats the big news for us at the moment. I hope to get back over here tomorrow and catch up with everyone else. I sure miss everyone!